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Salaams, it’s me again!

So this week has been pretty hectic, it’s been over a week since they’ve gone back to Pakistan and things are slowly going to get back to normal. Well, as normal as they can be, nobody can ever replace my mother and everything she did, may Allah give Sabr… It truly has been difficult, but Allah reassures us by telling us He does not burden a soul with more than it can bear. Alhamdulillah, the Mercy of Allah. I hope to be an amazing woman, just like my mother was. ان شا الله I can make her proud of me.

Arabic has been getting pretty tough now. We’re going over stories in class, then answering questions about the story and then presenting the story to the class. I go to say, it’s a struggle for me at the moment. I feel so incompetent but I’ve just got to keep trying my best. I will only gain from this what Allah wants me to gain, and nothing more or less than that! Alhamdulillah. Shaykh Ahmed Saad also teaches us Tafsir once a week which is a MASSIVE blessing, Alhamdulilah! Admittedly, I am not understanding much from the lessons because it’s completely in Arabic, but the blessing of having the Shaykh come and speak to us is just immense.
I should have gone in today but I’m just feeling so overwhelmed at the moment! I don’t know why, but yesterday’s lesson was just a complete blank for me, may Allah make it easy! I’m going to try and go over a story and then grammar today ان شا الله.

I started getting back into the exercising routine, let’s see how long this lasts! Been feeling extremely lethargic recently and well, enough is enough. My body has a right over me and I gotta work out!

Anyway, it’s Friday so Jummah Mubarak! I’m going to try and follow this timetable I have set myself 🙂 Tomorrow will be going to Hounslow Masjid for a Mawlid again ان شا الله. Last week the Mawlid was amazing! 🙂

Take care,


As-salaam ‘alaykum, this is my first blog post of the year 2015.

Since my last post, a lot and I mean a loooot has happened in my life… My beloved mummy returned to her Lord on the 28th November 2014. It still doesn’t feel real and it hasn’t sunk in yet. It feels as though she will walk through the front door and return home, healed…
What I can say is Alhamdulillah, for the peaceful way in which she left the world. If anyone is reading this, please read a Fatiha and make Dua for my mother, please.

I’m also on my way to the first day of the new term at Ibn Jabal. Feeling very nervous actually, I feel soo incompetent, although that is the wrong attitude to have. Mummy was so proud of me for wanting to learn Arabic, and Insha Allah I would like to make her proud.

Yesterday was the exam for the last term, which I know I epically flopped, but Alhamdulillah, was an experience and better to do it than to chicken out… Although much of the texts, I was looking at for the first time and couldn’t understand a lot of them. Khayr, Allāh only puts us through things which are beneficial for us, so whatever the result I shall be content Insha Allah. I just don’t want to let down my teachers who are so amazing, Masha Allah.
Yesterday I went to Shah Jahan Masjid in Woking to Latifiyya held by Shaykh Nuh. I remember I attended last year too. However, this time I was actually able to see the Shaykh, Alhamdulillah! Masha Allah 🙂 I feel so grateful to be blessed enough to attend a gathering of such wonderful people of Allāh.

I will leave the blog here, Insha Allah. Hope to write something again soon.
Salaams 🙂

This is an actual blog.. Shocking, I know!

As-salaam ‘alaykum non-existent readers of this blog! I begin every blog with an apology and an intention to blog more often and this is no different! The last time I blogged was at the beginning of Ramadan. Hmm, let’s rewind back to briefly review what has happened since July!

Alhamdulillah, during Ramadan, I graduated from St George’s, University of London with a BSc (Hons) in Biomedical Science! Graduation was really fun, but also quite tiring and the whole photography process was very annoying. Ah well, Alhamdulillah it was a special time, mostly for my parents who I’m sure felt proud of me that day 🙂

Ramadan was blessed Alhamdulillah, I did make some changes in my life and Insha Allah I try to carry on implementing those daily. Have a long way to go, I really need to work on fitting everything I want to do in my daily schedule!

After Ramadan, I visited Pakistan in August with my family for a couple of weeks. It was great to see relatives who I haven’t seen in over a year, Alhamdulillah. Personally, It was quite a memorable and insightful time for me.

Riiighht and then came September where I didn’t really do much other than the usual cooking and cleaning and helping around the house and being the best house-daughter I could be, haha! Can’t remember anything significant from September to really blog about.

So now we have reached October. This month I began my Arabic studies with the Ibn Jabal Gap Year programme. Its a really intense course which aims to go over a four year Arabic degree in the space of 9 months. Basically, its pretty tough and I’d appreciate your Duas if anyone is even reading this. I really hope you can keep me and especially my family in your blessed Duas. Life is pretty tough at the moment but I just know Allāh  ﷻ will help us get through.

Take care 🙂