Archive from May, 2020

Lost Without You

“I never truly understood what the words ‘I miss you’ meant, until I reached for my Mum’s hand and it wasn’t there”…

Almost 6 years on and the pain doesn’t subside. But maybe I don’t want it to, because no pain might mean I’ve forgotten.

But sometimes it’s hard. Excruciating. The wound appears when you least expect it. Tears flow when alone and around others. You hear of others passing away and it brings everything back. You want others to understand so they can understand you, but you don’t want anyone to suffer the loss that you have suffered.

Others can hurt you all they want, but the pain of losing your mother beats them all…

My mother was born here. There is a real sense of calm whenever I visit this place. She played in these streets as a child, she grew up here and walked on these bricks, she touched these walls… This place is peace.

#ExaminerLife is done, for now

Hello!

I have just completed the survey and written my report for this examination. Sad to say the process has come to an end! I really enjoyed it and it was a new experience with this kind of exam (can’t say any more) but I am so thankful for the experience! I hope I can do this again soon!

With regards to coronavirus, things don’t seem to have improved very much and it is so scary. I have been avoiding going out unless it is absolutely necessary. Last night I felt so ill, had a banging headache and fever, slight cough, upset stomach and dizziness. It is so scary when you feel these symptoms and knowing what is going on around the world. Today I am slightly better Alhamdulillah, but still a little worried, as you would be!! I’m sure it is nothing to worry about in’sha’Allah, and it is most likely due to the extreme weather changes happening at the moment and being in another country, but I hope I feel better soon.

I hope this situation clears soon and we can get back to a more ‘normal’ way of life. I pray that Ramadan is going well for everyone, and that everyone is keeping safe and is well physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually…